I am what i am

a thousand masks
across the world
separated by time
separated by distance
live the same life
as you want them to
monday to sunday
morning to evening
day and night
its the same
same lies
same treachery
for the same love
that you care a dime
i am what i am
i dont want fame
i dont want pity
all i want is to be loved
i am what i am
and nobody else
i am what i am
and not same as everyone else
i am what i am
and not one in a crowd
whereever i go
i know where i stand
i am what i am
i am what i am
i can’t be the one all of you want
i can’t be the one you dream of
i am not the "hunk"
i am not the "villian"
i am not the one with the "looks"
i am what i am
don’t try and change me
to be a person of your dreams
i am not the guy
with an identity each day
with a mask for each occasion
with a life for each person
i am what i am
just an ordinary guy
sitting next to all of you
with a single mask for all occasion
with a single identity every day
with a single life for all
i am what i am
the invisible ordinary guy
and the odd one
with an unique identity.

by: praveen

1,4 1,4 1,4 1,4

Heiiii hooo ..

Hmm actually i really want to write so many things in my blog but i don't have much time to do it ..
hiks T.T .. but now i can share a little bit bout my life, maybe it's not a long story but i think it's quite inspiring.

sooo .. many of you will confuse bout the tittle of this post .. 1,4 1,4 1,4
what kind of number is that ?!?! but believe me it's not a lotto number, i'm not gambling here ;p hahaha
the correct answer is .. my final score in the preparation college.

As you all know, maybe not all of you .. so better to tell you once again, all foreigner or international students must learn at the preparation course for 1 year before studying at the university. But since the beginning you have to choose the specific course that you want to study later so that they can guide you to your course .. i choose Technic as my major here.

I started my college in Berlin University of Technology in febuary 2011 and i manage to finish it on time. Actually it was a little bit hard in the beginning .. everything is in German from the book, note, lesson, untill the test !!! arrgghhh i'm going to be crazy .. I've faced so many difficulties and also problems due to my study of course .. But now it's overrr, i'm already free, no more college .. *just forget bout the new life at university next april* hahaha .. i think it's gonna be much much much harder than the college ..

Okay back to the topic pleaseee ... 1,4 .. it's amazing, i've never imagined that i could achieved this high score. Despite my German is like a disaster *even until now* but i think i'm willing to obtain this score and i'm really really thankful for this score. You must know that it was really scarred to do the test in a very big hall that is filled with hundreds of persons and actually i've already prepared for the worst because i thought i would get only 70 - 75 %. i didn't do the final tests very well .. fiuhhh

My target since the beginning of my college is just 1,7 which means 85% in average for all the subjects. But it turns out amazingly, 1,4 is just about 90% wohooo .. Thanks God for His grace, it's not about me but about God's favor. I just tried my best and always try to be in the right path with all the strategies that i've planned before due to my target ..  haha .. and let God always do the rest .. and at the end 1,4 *happy* Although i thought it could be better if i got 1,0 - 1,3 ( 90 - 95%), even the fact is no one got this score in the final result of our college for this semester :p that means my score is in the list of the top score .. yohoooo ..

Still afraid of the next journey. it's just the beginning and the road ahead is still very long .. but i have seen the bright light in this road .. i'm readddyyy for thr next journey ... tralalalaala .. hahaha

So for you guys, never ever give up with all the conditions that you have to face in this life !!!

NB : my English is getting worse nowadays, since i don't really use it here .. errr my bad. i have to learn more so that i can refresh my memory again .. haha

Highlights of 2011

Who says that living abroad for a student is always about studying ?!?!

I've passed 2011 with lot of amazing moments, of course without forgetting about my study ;p

Here are some photos about my activities in Germany throughout the year, so that you can feel

my excitement in living here ! Bye 2011, i'll miss you a lot, a year that full of blessings, loves,

and also happiness .. somehow i miss my families, my friends, my teachers, my schools, indonesian foods

especially MARTABAK !!!! grrr i always craving for this kind of food, my home and still many other else,

on the other hand i've learned so many things since i've lived here ! it's really exciting and also challenging,

and i have never been bored of learning something new ..  sooo ... at the end, Welcome 2012 !!!

my friends sent me off at the airport, thanks guys :) - january 2011

Miss you all !!

Germany, here i come !!! :)

Playing frisbee at park !! summer - May 2011

Trip to peacock island

Birthday surprise at night ... 

My first birthday ever in Berlin, thanks for the cake - May 2011

Masak Batagor bareng !

Suasana menunggu batagor mateng :p *muka - muka kelaperan*

sunday service at GBI Berlin

Big family of GBI Berlin

Having fun after sunday service !!

small study group with Dr.Schilling

BBQ time at park - summer time

My Baptism - 2011

Our class visited Germany's Auto Engineering Company 

Dinner with Pastor Thio Yansen at "Good Friends" Chinese restaurant

Studying Chemistry outdoor .. hahaha

Visiting Erfurt - Thueringen 

Christmas market in Berlin Spandau

This is how we spent our free time ..

decorating for christmas

 Christmas's Drama  2011

on the Christmas's stage - 25th December 2011

Short trip to Hannover at the end of 2011